End of a chapter and hopefully a bright new beginning to follow

Three weeks after the loss of a good friend came the news that my husband had taken on a second wife. This was not really a big shock to me. In a way deep down I had always wanted him to find someone else as I have always realized that he was not the right partner for me on the path that I have chosen to live my life. As humans we are not immune to emotions and although I tried hard not to be affected, but somehow I was. I could not really understand why, but I guess maybe it was the disappointment that although it was no big surprise, I guess I was hoping that he would prove me wrong.

I spent 11 years in this marriage sacrificing every wealth I had, exhausted me emotionally and wasted my youth. I was mentally, emotionally and physically abused. The only good that came out of this marriage was my three boys. However, having gone through these extremes and feeling no help was in sight from any created being brought me closer the the CREATOR. For this, I am truly grateful and I changed my perspective of looking at things that everything that happens, happens for a reason and in HIS infinite love and mercy, HE was actually guiding me to HIM and putting me through the laundry with clorox and all, so that I will return to HIM cleanse from every sin that I had committed. HE taught me patience and to have faith in HIM. It was truly a painful process but I realized that spiritually, I had gained so much transforming me into an obedient servant, teaching me to worship HIM as how a true and humble servant should be.

This incident finally gave me the reason to stand up for what I know I have to do if I love HIM more than anything else. That I should not be afraid of anything but HIM, that I should not be initimidated when someone attacks my beliefs if I am on the HAQ. That when I am on HAQ, I have HIM with me, there is no power more powerful.

This lead me to seek separation from my husband but not after seeking council with knowledgeable Islamic scholars in Yemen. I met with the number one fiqh ulamak with regards to my marital situation and he had given me a letter to take to the syariah courts in yemen recommending cancellation of my marriage. I had an opportunity also to seek council with another scholar whom I spent two hours with. Basically these two meetings were really HIS way to tell me that I am on the right path. That I have to fall back to Qur'an and Sunnah in all my affairs. Strangely, I felt that that I have to cut all ties with this man that I have lived 11 years of my life with in order to make way for better things on the path that I have chosen.

I also learnt that when you are sincerely doing things to please HIM and for no other reason, HE sends HIS help to you from unexpected means. Here I am, in a foreign land, laws that are not familiar to me, and language that is not fluent to me, but a land that is blessed by Rasulullah s.a.w. When I ran away to Yemen four years ago, I found a land where people embraced me and offered me help unconditionally and brothers that I meet keep telling me "you are in Yemen, you are our sister and we will protect you" . Today, when I need help most HE sends me help. Brothers stepping out of nowhere, calling from out of nowhere , offering help unconditionally. All these can only come from HIM swt. I am truly in awe of the help that HE has extended to me through HIS soldiers.

I am in the process of seeking cancellation of my marriage, but now I see light of its possibility when before I thought no court in the world would be able to free me from this man. InsyaAllah, I believe only good things will follow after this.

One of the scholars related to me this hadeeth :

"when you leave the doors of syariah, Allah will force you back through the same doors."