The Life Of A Believer Is Oriented To Pleasing The CREATOR ...

Sometimes I wonder why is it that things are never straight forward for me.  Having gone through so much, I should know better but I sometimes I just wish that HE swt would just hand things to me on a silver platter.  Then again would I be happy just with that?

Ramadhan has in the past always been an eventful month for me.  It was in Ramadhan that Allah swt forced me to find my way back to HIM swt.  One time I was accused of something I was not, but on the 27^th of Ramadhan that year, 5 months after I was accused, Allah swt freed me from the accusations.  This year, on the 27^th of Ramadhan, I was presented with an offer.  Although the offer seems to be lucrative and seems to be a solution to my problems and meeting my requirements, it came with a string of conditions. 

How should I look at these conditions?  From one point of view, I looked at these conditions from the way any normal person would, that is to compromise in order to solve my problems.  But somehow, my heart could not calliberate with these compromises when I want to live my life with Allah swt first in all my decision making.  Yes, it would be easy to compromise but how does the compromises fare against Allah’s ordainments?  How would fair against my quest to please Allah swt?

If I want to be on this path, I have to follow it 100%, FULL FAITH, with no doubt no reservations to be entertained, then only will I be able to attain the nusrah (help) of Allah swt.  Compromises seem to be a sign of weakness in my faith and my creed.  If Allah swt has said something to be haram, is there any room for compromise even if it is as an interim solution?  If Allah swt has made something permissible and honorable, would it not be a mockery to practise it as if it were not permissible and not honorable?  If Allah swt has decide on what is fair and just, is it our place to decide otherwise?  There is always a reason when Allah swt has decided on something for us and when we do not understand the underlying reasons, heed to the commands as a safe measure for us.

In my mind, if I were to compromise even as an interim solution, I am putting my desires ahead of Allah’s obvious laws.   Furthermore, no one should be obeyed on the account of disobeying Allah swt, lest you might incur the wrath of Allah swt.  It is when we want to deviate from what is made obvious that we will find ourselves getting into trouble, and then we ask why?

The offer is attractive, but is it just another test from Allah swt for me?  Is HE again testing my faith and asking me to be patient?  HE swt has promised victory, rewards without reckoning to one who is patient.  The weak me wants to accept the offer, but the me who has been trained through the years says, be patient Faith and have trust that Allah will fulfill HIS promises to those that puts their FULL FAITH inHIM swt.

I am still in the state of istikharah, and seeking guidance and I pray that HE swt will properly guide me towards a decision that will be pleasing to HIM swt and a solution that will help me continue on my journey towards HIM swt with a clear path ahead.

The life of a believer is oriented to pleasing the CREATOR and not the creation.